Last update 25.01.2007
at 09:53 pm
Could it be??

I have realized lately that I have become so emotional; I am not sure if they were true feelings or if they were just my hormones speaking.

I have noticed that most of my actions are so similar to what my father would do, it was more like the way he talks or moves his hands or even a habit that he had. Could it be That I inherited that from him just after he past away??
I know you guys probably think I am crazy or that I am loosing it.. But could it be that I am freaking out from this because it is just starting to hit me that he is no longer with us??
Just yesterday my mom was telling us one her famous stories, where she had give out all the details she can remember (trust me she wont mind even trying to remember the waitress hair color) :P that’s what type of story she is . Anyways I was thinking while she was talking that (oh my god) my father isn't there to agree on her story or to even disagree about some of the details. My father won't be telling me any of our old stories.

I was thinking what if I didn't get to hear all of his stories? What if he forgot to tell us all of them Who is going to tell to us??
I am so scared that I might have not heard them all, and I won't be able to hear them ?now that he is gone…

Anyways it was unbelievable the traffic today I left the house like 7:12 am and I had to wait ?in traffic up to 7:56 in the same street. It was like we all left the house at the same time heading to the same location.

so I guess back to the same thing every day… I just wish that we can have a subway or some kind of solution to the traffic jam we keep having whether it was in the morning rush hour or even the afternoon rush hour.

you know we had a wise driver that once said : " you know madam , me sure every nafar have two car in Qatar, and two car kolo kolo barra , that’s why fee wajid za7ma kol kol youm"

Last update 01.01.2007
at 08:55 pm
SAD NEW YEAR EVERY ONE
So I guess there goes another year of my life, not exactly what I was hoping for but at least done some of my last year's resolutions. I am not being sarcastic about it but I do feel older I mean a lot older than last year, much more mature than I was. I gained a lot more confidence through this year. Learned about this world and its harshness and how tuff it could be.
One the worst things of this year of course was the loss of my dear father on 04/09/2006, but I did learn a lot from this experience. I learned that loosing someone makes you strong especially if you lost someone like my dady. He just loved me he loved us all so much.

Lets go through the things I learned this year:

• How to say what's on my mind on the spot.
• I have become a lot more confident, where I learned if I wasn't I would hurt my self
• Not be so nice all the time
• Get what I want I want it
• Be patient
• I learned that being so messy can really hurt you in an emotional way(I'll explain later)
• Know who my true friends are.
• Men can't be friends with women (NO WAY)
• Never say I will do something where I know I can't do.
• Never relay on anyone to do something for you

2007 must do list:
1. Exercise
2.Continue my studies
3.Read more
4.Complete my projects before I meet their dead lines
5.Remodel my bed room
6.Take good care of my health
7.Maybe go to a dentist
8.Do some volunteer work
9.Complete my portfolio
10.Write down the things I want, have to do, must remember, who to call, what to do next.
11. i am sure there are alot more I'll think of the other things later