last update:Tuesday, April 22, 2008
at: 4:55 PM
Vicks is the MAGIC medicine

This is to those who don’t know the benefits of vicks VapoRub ointment:

It is really really the best thing I have ever used, whether it was a cold or pain in a joint or anything, imagine the other day I had this weird feeling of discomfort in my face, yes in my face I thought maybe the ac was facing me , then I thought it could be a wisdom tooth and a lot of other thought that crossed my mind I even thought maybe I had an infection in my facial bone (lol I know I am psycho) so anyways I had a very bad cold or flu I am not sure :P so anyways I used it for my cough and cold.
Then when my face was disturbing me I thought you know what !!! let me rub some vicks on it… and lol!! It actually worked… now that’s what I call magic :)

You can use Vicks for:

• On chest and throat, temporarily relieves cough due to common cold - so true
• On muscles and joints, temporarily relieves minor aches and pains - so true

Last update 03.04.2008
at 03:05 pm
Betrayal of a husband

Imagine after two pure loving years, this couple fought for their love. The girl fought with her parents and threatened to kill herself for the sake of her love for this man. This man that was suppose to love her, protect her, save her from the world. After a long battle with her parents and all of her suicide attempts, they finally surrender to her needs and allowed her to marry this man.

All it took was a month … everything went down the hill… only one month and he sold her gold which he bought for her… one month and he sold all of her furniture which he bought with dept money. It took her like about 19 days after the date of marriage to find out that she is pregnant, from a man which she is finding out day by day that he is a liar. She was what we call it these days blind folded with love.

She was head of heels in love with this man, and day by day she finds out another lie or another betrayal from him.

She thinks to herself, “oh my god , I am pregnant from a liar, a man who was someone and turns out to be someone else”. What can a girl do in a situation like this, while being pregnant from him.

After 3 years of marriage and a baby boy, she can’t stand him, he can’t stand her. Every day she wishes that he would drop dead. So would he. Sad isn’t it!

Could real love change into hate? Is it possible that after all what they went through they would hate each other?

My answer… defiantly!!

Last update 01.04.2008
at 12:57 pm
I got pranked today!

Imagine what they did to me…..

I was in my boss’s office and we discussing something related to work, anyways… so they were facing some difficulties with a user’s machine where he couldn’t access some systems and they wanted to test whether I could on my machine , so anyways I allowed them , when I got back to my office I got this message where it says, YOUR MACHINE HAS BEEN HACKED … AND ALL YOUR DATA WILL BE LOST… IN THE PROCESS OF DELETING YOUR DATA… SAY GOOD BYE TO YOUR DATA… YOUR MACHINE HAS BEEN FORMATED NOW … so I run to the network admin running walla L and I tell him, he said see Razan how many times do I tell u not plug ur USB to the machine connected to the server… and he was sooooo mean that he told I will write an email forbidding u from using ur personal USBs at work…

So I was like oh my god I am getting fired today… I go back to my office … and I see this other note where it says… happy Aprils fool… this was an Aprils fool prank … so I started to run to the network administrator … I wanted to kill him …but of course I can’t… I was never ever pranked this good before…thumbs up to haris :P

Last update 12.03.2008
at 04:34 pm
An act of kindness provides you happiness.

A random act of kindness benefits everyone. Random acts of kindness show you respect and love others. 

An act of kindness next time you're driving? Yes! Give way, step off that pedal and let someone else go first. You'll feel good. Try tipping that poor soul and feel the warmth inside. I would say the giver is rewarded most. Meanness in spirit keeps you trapped in a world filled with worry and stress. Give and be freed!

Sometimes you can become so wrapped up in your own world and desire for success and happiness that you close yourself to others. Here's an important principle to improving your life:

If you want to receive focus on giving. Give more of yourself to others, love more and be kind. Care about the success of others and help them. By doing this you open yourself up to receive all that you desire to be happy.  

These principles are all to do with giving. Giving is all about showing your appreciation for someone. Take time to thank your friends, your teacher, your colleague for their time and their support. 

Show someone you care!

Ok so I guess everyone knows now that I am a messy person… whether in real life or even in my website… this is who I am … and I guess all you guys figured this out already… so I thought hmmmm what can I do to fix this problem…

I created a new link just for my portfolio for those who are looking for a design … and who want to get to the point… coz I , myself get lost in my own website … so what can I do … I barely have any free time to redo my whole website… so let me know what you think of it…

Last update 27.02.2008
at 12:16 pm
Hello every one...NEW BLOG!

Look ! I know what you guys are thinking… now she is a designer and she can make a new look for her website ? how bad is that? Or how there is no arabic translation oon my website or even how you guys can’t add comments right away to the journals, or even loOoOoOl how the poll question never changed ever since I created it … or even whats new section was never update for suck a long time…

I know all that… and I am sorry for all that… really I am… but I am trying to wrok on all these issues .. I , my self get lost in my own website , how about those who enter for the first time . lOoOol 3ala golathom bab al najjar me’7ala3… so for now lets try to get one thing at a time … I am trying to use a ready blog with all the options already there for me to use … so try it out … if I get a lot of reacation on it I will statrt using it …check it out …

Last update 13.02.2008
at 12:09 pm
Congratulations ...to my self...

Last update 22.01.2008
at 10:44 pm
Soooo far... I hate 2008…

Al7amdallaha 3al kol 7al…but so far 2008 hasn’t been so friendly to me … ok I have had good news but my bad luck this time is so powerful its contagous lol…

i will give you a brief later...

Last update 22.01.2008
at 10:44 pm
Loloooooolooooooleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesh

Alf alf alf mabroook ya Razan , walla al mal al7alal mayedee3, I found my mobile lololoooooleeeeeeeeeesh… alllf mabroooook… I found my mobile….hehehhehehehehe don’t ask me where coz if I told you where I found it, you would kill me …hehehhehe… I can be really reallllly lazy, if you understand what I mean…
bas al7adallah I found it… but lol… I didn’t switch it on yet coz the police might think I am the thief and they might put me in jail….lol just kidding, baaaas agaaaain allllllllllaaaaaaaaf mabrooook to me… hehehehhe walla u wouldn’t believe where I found it …
7a9ltooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!

Last update 21.01.2008
at 05:20 pm
Something good... this week...

I got a gold medal... cool huh!!

Last update 20.01.2008
at 02:37 pm
I am in the (I HATE MYSELF) zone … so beware!

I am such a looser… seriously… I am… I never remember where I keep anything, I leave everything behind. I never look for something and find it …ya3nee I thought I would actually learn a lesson from my previous ordeal…. But nooooooooh Miss Razan never learns !!!! no freakin way …

I should always prove myself wrong…I just forgot my favorite mobile phone in the airport somewhere … and I ….oooof I just hate myself… LEAVE ME ALONE …

PS: Dear friends please call me so I can restore ur number in my mobile again…

Last update 13.01.2008
at 01:03 am
If you ever want to lose something just give it to me!

Man!!! Me and my bad luck , some people consider me to be careless that’s why I keep losing my things and others think I forget a lot . but the painful truth is this:” I really don’t know where does my mind go, or what’s occupying it most of the time?” to be honest I believe I am just carless… let me tell you what happened to me this time…

I ask my friend to drop me off to the airport , but I was a little shy to ask her to do so coz she had a car accident the day before, but she is a sweet girl so she offered me a ride… so anyways her front door on the passenger side was hit , which made it hard for me to get in so I ask our housekeeper to keep my laptop in the back seat. Anyways for the first time I got to the airport on time, when I got to the check in desk I realized I had some spare time on my hand… why not get me e-gate card (I always wanted to get one but I never had extra time coz I always arrive to the airport when they are calling on the last call…lol!!” I know… so anyways I go into the room , the lady took my picture and everything was going smoothly , so she said you must be lucky the machine usually slows down or freezes… so I told her : “ really!! Allah yester wesh be9eer feeny alyoum!!” walla that’s what I said . so anyways I am proud going through the e-gate passing everyone behind. FYI once you cross the gate there is no way out ! so when I got through …. I was like oooooooooooooooooooooh noooooooooooooooooooooooo where is my laptop??!!!! Ooooh my god I forgot it somewhere!!! But hey ! I don’t remember carrying it ???!! ooooooooooooooooh nooooooooooooo its in Amal’s car!!???

Maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan I should kill myself, so I run to my gate and ask them how much do I still have before we have to get on the plane ? she was like you have only half an hour…

What was I to do??? Just I let it go? How was I gonna study????
Hmmmm so I called Amal and asked her nicely (not really) if she could plllllz pretty plz get my laptop… I was sooooo ashamed to do so coz she just arrived to her house… I swear I can hear my heart beating , so she was like ok I will get it… so I waited and waited… I was like my god what am I gona do if she gets here and I have to board the plane , she will kill me… anyways she makes it… I owe her alooooot…

Imagine they even called on my name coz I was making the plane late :p lol …3ady eash da3wa ma3ndhom 9abor :P

So I get on the plane , I didn’t even sit yet , and the pilot was like” we are very sorry to inform you this but Bahrain’s international airport is closed at the moment for some security reasons and the flight is being delay for further notice…. Ok whyyyyy did they call on my name if they new already that the airport was closed ??? like I needed more bad luck??

It turns out to be that Mr. George Bush was arriving to Bahrain , and ofcourse its ok to delay everyone else for his sake … offfff…

So when we landed I saw Air Force One with the secret service surrounding the plane …AS IF!!

Almohim my friend was suppose to pick me up from the airport , but she couldn’t make it coz there were too many cars, and we have a test at 6 and it was already 4, anyways I take a limo and head to my hotel… everything was ok then…. But oooof I wanted to kill her heheheheheh …women!!! We went to a restaurant and we were eating soooo quickly as if we hadn’t eaten for ages …lol!!

Want to know why women should drive here is a very good reason…

She took us to this very crowed street filled with traffic lights , which we took 3 red light and waited, then she realized that that was the wrong street…eaaaash 3ogbaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa????? I started to panic…imagine after all this we get lost?? But nooo my friend wants to go to the same street she usually uses coz she is afraid of getting lost , so it was like start point which she only knows …
Anyways we get there on time… and we start our exam… thank god I we made there on time… and I actually did pretty good.

lol ...oooh look at me ... i am from thr secret service!!!

what u lookin at????

I think this plane needs a make over!! it looks too old , so why not?? is there not enough oil money to redo the "Air Force one" Aircraft???

Last update 01.01.2008
at 09:24 am

It’s a NEW YEAR EVERY ONE … I think!! :P

So! Days go by… hours fly like seconds…and we are still waiting… or at least I am still waiting…

Inshalla this year will be one of the best years for all of us. I aim this year to be married before the end of 2008. Lol!! I guess my clock is ticking. It’s not like I am engaged or anything, it’s just I guess I am ready …saaaame3!!! Hehehhehe… this is a metaphor for whoever is there for me!!

True I still have a lot of other things in mind, like travel more, open my own company, do some real volunteer work in Africa or Iraq… (it’s a dream of mine). Ya3nee I have a lot of ideas and stuff that I wish I can do but I know that if I didn’t do them now I would be able to do them when I am married.

Coz you know Arab men! (lol) don’t you just love’m!

So anyways what I am trying to say is that this is just like any other day… no biggy…

But to be honest I can say that last night was the best new years eve everrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!

So anyways I wish you all the warmest wishes for the coming year.  May God give you all you wish for and make it full of blessings for you and your families.

As usual Lets go through the things I learned this year:

• if you seem strong people will fear you
• letting things slide to the last minute is never a good thing – someone once told me- which was a very bad advice :P (leave it to the last minute and you will do it) loool!! Imagine!!
• You can say what you want whenever you want, but you must always be respectful.
• Stop trying to embellish things, just say what I think is the right thing to say.
• I realized that I am really annoying like my friend Amal said, I do love every baby I see, and I always stop to make conversation with the little ones.
• Your true friends are those who were your friend since childhood.

2008 must do list:
1. Get married :P
2. Make more time for studying
3. Really look into this - starting my own business
4. Exercise
5. Make more time for my mom
6. Put an eye on my brother
7. Stop drinking redbull
8. Write down the things I want, have to do, must remember, who to call, what to do next.
9. Learn how to drive better
10. Learn some math lol!
11. Know my right hand from my left hand without taking a minute to think (I sound like a blonde)
11. I don’t have a lot of things for this year, at least at the moment

This was my 2007 must do list, and I believe I have accomplished most of it
1. Exercise – hmmm not really
2.Continue my studies - yes done and still doing
3.Read more – kindaa
4.Complete my projects before I meet their deadlines - done
5.Remodel my bed room- can’t seem to make up my mind
6.Take good care of my health - somehow
7.Maybe go to a dentist - went waaa a’7eeraaaan
8.Do some volunteer work – nothing yet
10. Write down the things I want, have to do, must remember, who to call, what to do next. – done!

Last update: 25.12.2007
Nothing!!

Sorry but I have nothing to add!

Last update 11.12.2007
at 11:26 am
THE 9AR9OOR FROM HELL!!!

Heheheh this scene was when I threw all the shoes I could find on this 9ar9oor who tried to kill me.

Ya7aram what killed it was the Nike shoe, just like there slogan “just do it”… I tried all the pifpuff there was… and 9ar9oor refused to die it kept on moving and flying, it was soooooo disgusting. Imagine I had just gotten out of the shower and I was going to the outside kitchen , when I was attacked by the cockroach from hell .

So anyways I kept on calling on my sister to come and rescue me, or at least help me kill the beast! The more I sprayed him the more he got irritated – the scarier I got. I never thought I was a girly girl like this time I want to vomit from disgust walla…

Last update 11.12.2007
at 11:41 am

You know just that day I was thinking about my dad and how he always rescued us when a 9ar9oor would come. So anyways I was watching this movie The Tiger and the Snow it really touched my heart, it is an Italian movie with subtitles of course… but there is a scene where a bat flies into his daughters bed room and tells them not to yell or say ugly things about the bat, so when he start to direct the bat to the window and a good manner the bat flew out of the room , and the girls were amazed at their father…

to view the clip click here

I miss my father and his sweetness and kindness…ya7alelak yababa…

Last update 19.11.2007
at 09:41 am
MY LATEST PROJECT...SOOO PROUD...

This is my latest project, I had tickets done and posters and rollup banners... so freakin proud...

Last update 08.11.2007
at 01:35 am
THE MORNING DRIVE AND MY SISTER...

Oooooooooof…ooof ….ooof… I hate driving, if you ask me what is the most thing I just started to hate is driving and cleaning (don’t ask!)… every morning I have this terrible race with time…oooof I hate that feeling… it is so crowded and busy and everybody wants to cut in front of you, when someone does it without asking first I want just press on the petrol and hit his car… I know you think I went mad right? Well driving in the morning is just hell on earth. Loooool not to forget my sister: P she has to talk , talk, talk ,talk! No matter how many times you tell her that you are not the mood to hear her today.

The other day I told her please R….n stop talking , then she did, then she said well can I talk now? Loool then I said no, then she was quite, then she said will you allow me to speak tomorrow? Imagine she is older than me … well I still love her probably as much as she talks…. Lool…I would like to rephrase, I mean I love her as much as she talks on the phone :P…sorry sis…

watch this video and see we are not the only ones who think this way!  

Last update 29.10.2007
at 09:05 am

I stand corrected!

There is a lot of controversy regarding the 9/11 incident, people say it’s done by Muslim terrorists and some say it was an inside job. To be honest with you, its kind of getting suspicious because we all know that the American government wants our oil, so it is true that it was an inside job. Well even if it was who’s to blame here? The American government or Bin Laden for this matter? The American government for not being able to prevent this from happening or Bin Laden for claiming he did it??

See the problem here is this: its either Bin Laden really did it and the American government is right, or he actually didn’t do it but was covering for the American government for his own sake!! Even if he didn’t do it but claims to have done it, is it completely not right to do such a thing, why not just betray the bastards and say the truth and let the American people judge for themselves who the real terrorist is!

Anyways what I’m trying to say is whether it was a conspiracy from the beginning, or even if it was planned since the Clinton’s presidency as everyone knows the Monica Lewinski ordeal, the American people felt betrayed by their president and focused only on this affair, and neglected all the other issues relating the hunt of Bin Laden!

See I want to get you to understand my point of view I am not against Bin Laden or anyone for this matter, all I am saying is: “if Bin Laden really didn’t do it and this whole thing was a conspiracy from the beginning, why should we accept that the American people and the American government to call us terrorists?
I believe just like millions of people the fact that they are after the oil, but it is a complete catastrophe if people were dying for this reason.

People are calling us (the Muslim society) terrorists! Just because we have “The Jihad” mentioned in our holy Quran, thus doesn’t mean that we condemn the death of all these innocent people. The truth behind this matter is that we should not keep our mouths shut, just because we are Muslims we are better than them.

I can’t help but wonder, is it true! that all this planning and plot for invading Iraq was really thought through even before he was in the white house, if so this means that the hole American election for the presidency is a fraud. Because there are some theories that say that this whole 9/11 was planned since the 1998, while the president was busy with his affair the white house intern. And the Bush administration is trying to blame the lack of intelligence of the American government and their Incompetence. Or was the Multiple Intelligence Warnings Converged on 11 th September really ignored for the sake of the gulf’s oil, and to be able to invade the Gulf without really calling it an invasion , but to put the title “ the war against terror “. WHAT!! What terror? the terror you are causing for our children or the terror you causing for our women? or the terror you are causing to our men who are studying in your country just because they are Muslim. Who is the terrorist really?

Let’s get one thing straight, we probably will never know really who was behind the 9/11, just like nobody knows who killed Kennedy. But is a known fact that every once in a while the Americans must go to war whether the war was to protect the American people or to protect some higher governmental assists.

To get one thing clear I am not a raicest , I am just saying to the American people that just like how you consider us terrorists we also consider you not only terrorists but plotters, thieves , murderers and a lot a lot more. At least our fault is obvious if we think someone deserves to die we say it or even do it. Not like you we blame it on someone else for the sake of money or oil. We don’t claim that we are humanitarians while really aren’t.

Please don’t get me wrong, maybe I don’t really understand in politics or even I don’t have all the right facts but this is my point of view. We shall raise our heads high no matter what they call us …

I know that this probably should be the first article after Eid, but anyways I wasn’t feeling so good after Eid I had the flu, which made me feel terrible. I had to go back to work , but I couldn’t make it. So I ended staying at home.

In case of spelling mistake to grammar errors , excuse me while I hate to reread and hate to double check …heheh I am too lazy!

Last update 29.10.2007
at 08:12 am
The Reason to my delay!

Ups and downs! mood swings...awful…

Last update 07.10.2007
at 01:46 am
with my latest car accident... here is the Traffic Violation List

to read the Traffic Violation List click here ...

this is a call out to all the women out there...

"we can't drive like how we did before... Hell just froze over... I guess we better not drive :P "

Last update 06.10.2007
at 02:14 am
at last ... I hit another car :( it was about time...

so my first day back I hit another car no wonder everything went great in Bahrain... there was something missing ...loool and it just happened when I got back.. But thank god not a big a deal I just reversed on this bus which was parked behind me… don’t ask me how I didn’t see the great big bus… I am a girl …ok!!!

Last update 05.10.2007
at 01:32 am
My first day went great thanx for asking :)

So this was unbelievable … everything went fine on my trip to Bahrain for college of course.. I couldn’t believe it.. I was on time for my flight (thank god)… the flight arrived on time… I didn’t put my bag with the luggage I dragged it… though it was heavy every one helped me put in the luggage cabin… I didn’t have to do anything lucky me… so anyways we arrive safely and it’s time to rent a car… so again (thank god) I find a driver with a nice car Yukon 2007 cool huh!

So anyways he takes us to the hotel.. I ask the hotel if they can book me a room every two weeks, and if they can give me a special offer coz I will be going there frequently, so not only do they agree they actually upgrade me cool!! So go to the room, and prepare myself for tomorrow I call the reception for a wakeup call... next morning they wake me and I sleep loool I missed it….

Looool!! just kidding :p … ok! I was late…who isn’t … :p

but I made it to the college …it was a strange feeling… Sitting and listening the teacher talking about the college rules and regulations and the attendance policies… and of course there is always the geeky student who never stops asking or always answering before anyone even gets the chance to raise their hand… boy was that annoying … but anyways I got lost trying to find the other classes… that was annoying, but fun in the same time…

anyways there was no breaks between the classes that was tiring …but the first day was great al7amulla I was so happy …finally I am going to college… I am going to be the person I always wanted to be …

At last one of my dreams is coming true… the dream of going to college is finally here. The first day at college starts on Thursday 04.10.2007.
I start a new job alhamdalla and go to college, I guess now I have my life on track just like I always wished. I have suffered so many times from discrimination coz I didn’t go to college and now I can say “in ur faaaaaaaaaaaaaace” inshalla my first day will go great, wish me luck. I haven’t really thought about really studying but I mean it I want to get strait A.s always I want to be the best student there is. I want to be successful I want to be the valedictorian if there was one. I am so eager to learn… I want to be able to say “ no I can’t go out with you , I have classes” …

I will give u an update as soon I leave class…lol! I always wanted to say that :)

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Last update 27.09.2007
at 01:41am
Happy Kerika3ooooo every one!!!

Last update 25.09.2007
at 06:27 pm
Thanks... I felt great...

Last update 20.09.2007
at 04:00 pm
LEEEEEELEEEEELLEEEESSSSSSSSSSHHHHHH!!

Last update 15.09.2007
at 04:58 pm
I lost my battle with the dentist. Where are the drugs when u need them :P

See I always thought as long as I take good care of my teeth I won’t have to visit the dentist… well!!! I guess I was wrong..

Well for those who didn’t know, my birthday was on Wednesday 12/09/2007… I didn’t get anything for m birthday except for those amazing email I got … it was the worst birthday ever…look it wasn’t that bad.. but on my birthday I had o finish a project given to me from work + go to the dentist + stay up until 2 on the first night of Ramadan.

So anyways now I can’t stand the pain anymore… its unbearable … I guess I lost the battle with the dentist and he won this time… inshalla I will go to the dentist Tuesday morning I have to have a root canal…imaaaaaaaagine the worst thing in dentistry and I have to do… the one thing I fear the most after of course dying in a plane crash or eaten by a bear or a lion …

So please to those who had a root canal done …plz comfort me with ur emails….which only means well…:P I mean only say that it is not painful….pllllz…

Wish me all the luck or wish me to be completely drugged during the procedure ..

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Last update 11.09.2007
at 02:48 pm
I COULDN'T BELIEVE MY EYES!!!

You can’t imagine the huuuuge number of emails I received right after Abu Nawaf’s group forwarded my email… so proud of joining this group. So many people appreciated my work so many people had some good/bad comments … but I enjoyed all……THANX to all viewers....this was a great gift right before my birthday. :)

Than Abu Nawaf’s group for this great opportunity…


link: http://www.abunawaf.com/post-6053.html

Last update 11.09.2007
at 11:19 am
Self kindness is the process of simply being kind to yourself.

Self kindness is merely asking "what is the kind thing to do?" rather than the "right" thing, the "perfect" thing or even "what will others think?” Kindness becomes the basis of your relationship with yourself.

I believe that in a kind relationship, anything is possible.

We often hear that much of our dysfunction comes from our lack of self esteem. Self esteem is defined as confidence or self respect. People who have "self esteem" yet are not "self kind" often have strict boundaries and struggle with resistance in their relationships. Self esteem without self kindness can create the priority of being right rather than simply being. Learning to be kind to yourself goes beyond self esteem and self value by enhancing your relationship with yourself.

But there is anger that comes after the kindness, which always leads to regret. But Anger is a completely normal, usually healthy, human emotion. But when it gets out of control and turns destructive, it can lead to problems—problems at work, in your personal relationships, and in the overall quality of your life. And it can make you feel as though you're at the mercy of an unpredictable and powerful emotion.

Here we live in a country that provides free Medicare for its people, and we don’t seem to show gratitude towards our governments. We should be so thankful to be living in such countries with such wonderful governments.

I was watching the movie "SiCKO,” Michael Moore’s latest film, will probably make you laugh.  It may make you cry.  It is a powerful and often humorous indictment of our health insurance industry, riddled with corruption and pitiless abuse of the sick by rapacious, profit-mad corporations.  But it is propaganda.  In “SiCKO,” as in all his films, Moore violates the contract between reporter and audience: to tell the truth.  His inaccuracies and lack of nuance give his detractors a glaring target to strike, making it easy for them to dismiss his message.

Don’t get me wrong of course half of us, when we get really sick we would rather seek medical assistance outside Qatar, if we can’t afford to do so the government will not only pay for it , it will also give the patient and the member who is accompanying him a daily allowance. That is just generous, not to forget we don’t pay taxes (THANK GOD).

The quality of health care in Qatar is generally high and equal to that in Western Europe and the USA. Qatar now has a public health service providing free or very low cost health care for its nationals and it’s important to note that these services are also available to expatriates.

Tourists visiting Qatar should have travel insurance that includes cover for private medical treatment, but they also have access to state medical facilities in the case of emergencies. How great is that ! where on the other hand back in the United States the Lack of health insurance causes roughly 18,000 unnecessary deaths every year in the United States. Although America leads the world in spending on health care, it is the only wealthy, industrialized nation that does not ensure that all citizens have coverage.

So anyways when my dad was ill we first took him to Riyadh to seek treatment there for his cancer before sending him anywhere else. After his check up and so medical procedures it was time for radiation sessions, so the doctors in Riyadh advised us to go back to Qatar where Al Amal Hospital is considered to be one of the most prestigious cancer facilities in the Middle East.

You want to know how much we paid ?!! As Saudis living in Qatar … we paid nothing all what we had to do is donate blood to the hospital… how generous is that??Where will ever find such generosity in foreign counties?

The World Health Organization's ranking of the world's health systems:

Last update 17.08.2007
at 12:56 pm
Long days…long afternoons… short nights…

I wake up every day at 6 o’clock in the morning (of course using my phone’s alarm) which I always put on snooze until its almost too late to get ready. Lol! Anyways sometime I am not in the mood for driving what so ever, of course I find it difficult to ask my mother if the driver can drop me off to work … coz I never stopped nagging about getting my license … imagine the irony … I wanted to drive so badly . I thought by driving all my problems and worries would fade away. Now all I feel from driving is problems and worries.coz I always have a problem with parking my car – I hate parking.

And worries that I might scratch my car or lasama7a allah kill someone…

See before I would say that when I get my car I will be so happy and I will go out whenever I want and wherever. Now I hate going out coz I have to drive lol! Funny huh!!

But don’t get me wrong I love what I am doing some days I drive and some days I don’t.

Anyways back to my long days, I told I started a new job which is going great al7amd allah, but there is the rush and anxiety … I never had anxiety attacks before… but I did here … my fear like I told you guys before was that I would regret changing my jobs. Which inshalla I wont regret. Anyways as I was saying my anxiety comes from the fear or rejection or not being the same loved successful person I used to be.

Well until now, I feel like the people around me are getting to know me and getting to know how I am. And hopefully will love me too.

So anyways as I was saying …lol!! The day can be so long so much work that I swear to god I didn’t even have time to check out the time, with the new launching of the new website, we have to be so focused on everything.

So I started to leave work like at 4 pm or even 5.. And I go home and work some more… plus I have my personal projects which I adore.. But sometime I don’t.

Inshalla I will start soon – you will know when its time.

So anyways why do I have long afternoons too… well my mother and sister have traveled to Europe and left me and my brother alone… well I am not complaining..lol!!! I love to spend time alone…the quietness is what I love, of course not always. But I can eat whatever I want drink as much as redbulls as I want … no one is there to tell you otherwise … and the time i have left to sleep feels sooo litltle..i don sleep in the afternoon and i dont have enough time to sleep at night...when will i ever sleep like a normal person??

anyways I have talked a lot… enough..

Last update 29.07.2007
at 12:56 pm
sorry for the delays...

I had one of the most horrible weeks of my last week, thank god it’s over. Don’t ask me what it was; it was just awful plus terrible plus dreadful. I just can’t come to the level where I can explain to you how awful it was. I believed it was the end for me. Anyways it’s over now THANK GOD. It just always seems to me that it would be the end for me. I know you are probably wondering what could it be… what is it… well she tell us… well to be honest with you… no I won’t be telling you … LOL! Sorry private matter.

But alhamdalla now that things are back to normal or almost back to normal – inshalla by Monday I would find out (don’t misunderstand me it is back to normal just double checking) . I am at least glad that “me” is back to normal and back to my normal self.

Now I would like to take the time to thank all those wonderful people who add something to my guest book.

13. سلطان

Thank you for saying that… I know … and I will try to update every chance I get

12. Noor

Thank you noor so very much..its my pleasure.

11. sweetlipz

Thaaanx..

10. Sameer

Great compliments…I might actually take u on that one :P

9. ام نوف

Looooooooooool ….thanx and thanx to the Bahraini people …I love Bahrain…inshalla some day I will place a recipe of what I cook so u can eat it too.. oo thanx so much for those wonderful words

8. ساره

Thanx so much..I am so happy you liked it.

7. سلمان
I know walla I know, inshalla maybe next year I have it translated… I barely have time to update, so imagine if I had to translate too.. but really great comment..you are so right!

6. nouf

Thank you sis for even viewing the my site. I am so glad you liked it .

5. nafisah

I loved your kids…amazing …and thank you for letting me take their photos..

4. abdulla

Thanx, and yes I know it needs more attention..thanx for the advice.. I will try my best.

3. sultana

Thanx alooot..

2. maha

No thank you very much for liking it

1. Nasir

Your welcome any time…

* four days after I wrote this… my designers block has disappeared … cool huh! I guess I just had to talk about it – to solve it … I am sure now that I am ready for change…

This means that sweet girl (which I am) is disappearing …

Last update 02.03.2007
at 03:32 pm
. . . THANX . . .

Thanks to my support group:
Thank you …
You know who you are… especially for saying that I have grown up…
Thank you … for your support …
Thank you … for encouraging me…
Thank you … for pushing me to better my self …
Thank you … for believing in me …
Thank you … for saying what others won't say, to spare my feelings …

Last update 28.02.2007
at 09:40 am
Hello every one

I know it's been so long since the last time I have added anything into my journal, but you know its been really exciting lately, I have a lot of afternoon activities which makes it really difficult for me to do anything. I have joined a digital art committee which I am aiming to manage plus I have afternoon classes, so a day here a day there not to forget some of my freelancing JOBS (which I love to death) another plus I am considering - afternoon classes- which I will be giving …wouldn't that be amazing …hehehehe I will get to boss people around… I guess I have some emotional problems with orders which I feel that I want to take it out on my students…. (mentally ill!) you might think…

I think I am getting there… hopefully…

Thank you all for your support … & you know who you are …

Last update 25.01.2007
at 09:53 pm
Could it be??

I have realized lately that I have become so emotional; I am not sure if they were true feelings or if they were just my hormones speaking.

I have noticed that most of my actions are so similar to what my father would do, it was more like the way he talks or moves his hands or even a habit that he had. Could it be That I inherited that from him just after he past away??
I know you guys probably think I am crazy or that I am loosing it.. But could it be that I am freaking out from this because it is just starting to hit me that he is no longer with us??
Just yesterday my mom was telling us one her famous stories, where she had give out all the details she can remember (trust me she wont mind even trying to remember the waitress hair color) :P that’s what type of story she is . Anyways I was thinking while she was talking that (oh my god) my father isn't there to agree on her story or to even disagree about some of the details. My father won't be telling me any of our old stories.

I was thinking what if I didn't get to hear all of his stories? What if he forgot to tell us all of them Who is going to tell to us??
I am so scared that I might have not heard them all, and I won't be able to hear them ?now that he is gone…

Anyways it was unbelievable the traffic today I left the house like 7:12 am and I had to wait ?in traffic up to 7:56 in the same street. It was like we all left the house at the same time heading to the same location.

so I guess back to the same thing every day… I just wish that we can have a subway or some kind of solution to the traffic jam we keep having whether it was in the morning rush hour or even the afternoon rush hour.

you know we had a wise driver that once said : " you know madam , me sure every nafar have two car in Qatar, and two car kolo kolo barra , that’s why fee wajid za7ma kol kol youm"

Last update 01.01.2007
at 08:55 pm
SAD NEW YEAR EVERY ONE
So I guess there goes another year of my life, not exactly what I was hoping for but at least done some of my last year's resolutions. I am not being sarcastic about it but I do feel older I mean a lot older than last year, much more mature than I was. I gained a lot more confidence through this year. Learned about this world and its harshness and how tuff it could be.
One the worst things of this year of course was the loss of my dear father on 04/09/2006, but I did learn a lot from this experience. I learned that loosing someone makes you strong especially if you lost someone like my dady. He just loved me he loved us all so much.

Lets go through the things I learned this year:

• How to say what's on my mind on the spot.
• I have become a lot more confident, where I learned if I wasn't I would hurt my self
• Not be so nice all the time
• Get what I want I want it
• Be patient
• I learned that being so messy can really hurt you in an emotional way(I'll explain later)
• Know who my true friends are.
• Men can't be friends with women (NO WAY)
• Never say I will do something where I know I can't do.
• Never relay on anyone to do something for you

2007 must do list:
1. Exercise
2.Continue my studies
3.Read more
4.Complete my projects before I meet their dead lines
5.Remodel my bed room
6.Take good care of my health
7.Maybe go to a dentist
8.Do some volunteer work
9.Complete my portfolio
10.Write down the things I want, have to do, must remember, who to call, what to do next.
11. i am sure there are alot more I'll think of the other things later

So anyways my friend has this female dog, which doesn't waste a year with out bran new puppies, it is so much fun with those puppies. They were born on November 5th .
She has Orlando the (Chihuahua) he gets so jealous when are playing with the puppies coz he is too short he can't seem to help him self to jump to the bed. I feel that he feels like such a looser: P and then he ends up mad …grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..
To me he looks like this Mexican dude who looks like he want a smoke.

Last update 30.11.2006
at 10:53 pm

One of the most interesting things in life is trying to figure out who you are or at least who you want to be.
Is it really that hard to know your own self?
Technically, I think yes it is really that hard. See when you are still young you think you can concur the world, you can achieve the highest but the truth is, it is really hard to even make in this world, after the majority of people changed. They really did. No body really cares who you are or even who you turned out to be. It is true that people must mind their own business, but until when? When the whole society gets corrupted?
Sometimes I wonder should I change into this horrible person to get to what I want, or just stay the way I am, and get no where?
It is a hard question… who am I? am I the good person who wouldn't mind get run over by others
Or am I the person who will run people over
I believe it’s a hard thing being nice and all that because people are so mean these days , I am not being negative or anything but I agree that we have seen the worst in people at least in this century, its like the good people who actually cared about the society are extinct or thy all vanished. Its like an end of an area .or maybe there were never good people who cared about the society in the first place.

Last update 02.05.2006
at 04:51 pm
why is it so hard to believe?

You know what I can't understand, is why does everybody thinks that lovers (true lovers) wont get married and if they did love dies. I am sick of hearing this its like" listen don't think for a minute that you might find love, and if you did, don't think for a minute that you will marry the love of your life. So what's the point of even thinking about it"
Why is so tuff, I am not saying that I going through this but I am reading this book its called "Banat Al Riyadh" its nice and all that, but it's like all men are bastards (as if we don't already know that).
People say that marriage kills love so in order to stay in love stay away from marriage! What a yukki thing to say, its like saying don't you ever think you will marry the one you love or at least don't think that u will stay in love..

Why is it so difficult, I really don't understand!!

I missed designing so this weekend I made a couple of new designs, I felt like I am so busy working I didn't have time for my precious website.

I feel a lot stronger as a character these days I always say what I is on my mind not afraid to speak out load did before, when I don't like something now a days I just go a head and say it . I had a meeting with out I.T. Dep. Manager I complained about the website they selected and what a bad choice that was, can you actually believed he agreed with. (You go girl!)

* Some times when I see little babies I can't wait to have one my self, babies are so cute I just love them. But you know marriage isn't always great. You know how it is when you are a teenager with your friends knowing that my god she is so pretty I bet you she will have the best husband, but when reality hits it sucks, being pretty is not key to a happy marriage. Most of my friends have failed marriages I wonder why! Is it because we are so naive or so immature, this girl I know had this amazing most beautiful wedding and the most beautiful wedding gown and the most gorgeous husband that every girl at the wedding wished she was there sitting next to him. Three moths later she was divorced. Guess why! She said no one told here he was "BOLD". WHAT!! Are we so stupid to think that marriage is only about finishing the deal of being perfect?? Is that what marriage is about these days? She says he is like a mama's boy. Well! Maybe that’s true too. Marriage is like a record deal it might work out and it might not but you really need to work on you record deal to be able to have a successful record. But lately what I have noticed that ladies really work hard on having the perfect wedding for months, and can't seem to work hard on trying to save the marriage.
Oh if u find grammar mistakes or spelling... I just hate to reread.

I know I was talking about starting my own business but I won't tell you guys what it is about so you won't steel my idea ?

Last update 09.04.2006
at 02:22 pm
COOL ADS
You know I would like to start my own business so badly I just don't have the time or the money to start, so anyways there are a lot of TV ads that I love or even some print ads that make a lot of sense. See I was surfing the internet and I found this really cool website , I don't really know where does he get all these ads but its kind of cool to have that type of interest . (http://sandeepmakam.blogspot.com). Trust me u will love it if you were interested in advertising

You know when you say things when you are angry , I mean things that you don't really mean, its only anger talking . I really didn't mean it at all. I didn't only hurt the person's feeling I hurt my feelings too. Its like I lost my self truly I even feel like I am not who I am suppose to be .God!! I feel so bad. Its like I am turning into this person and I don't even now it.
So to save my self from being a bad person here is what I am going to do:
- No more saying things with out thinking first
- If I am mad I won't talk or say anything without calming down first (by counting to10)
- don't make a big deal out of small issues
- stop being selfish

Anyways I can't wait to go to Dubai again, do u know Robbie Williams is going to be there performing , so my mom is like (NO WAY!) she's like buy a car first ! she thinks if I go to Dubai will spend so much that it will cost me a car lol! Hello I am not that big of a spender, I try to save, but I always end up spending my savings .

I really wish I can live in Dubai I love it so much, people say if you live there it wont be so special… well I don't care I just want to live there soooo much.

Anyways I am going to get my self a new Toshiba laptop (inshalla) which means I will be updating my website like a lot more than before, maybe change the look a little. Advertise more. I feel like I didn't give my website its needs.

I went to Dubai for five days and there is no word that can explain how beautiful it is. Forget the shopping malls! Just look around see how perfectly designed the streets are, how graphically designed the ads are. The ads are enough just more than perfect.

Now the buildings, I have been to Dubai not last April the one before, it was nothing like what I saw this time. You know people say the rush hour is terrible, well! I don't think so I swear to god we did

n't stop at all ok we weren't moving fast but we didn't once, we only stopped when the red light was on.

Or let's talk about their restaurants, (OH MY GOD) every thing is just delicious there, I probably gained 5 kilos per day
: P

I had the best time I swear I wish I can live their , people who live there are so lucky I bet you they don't even have time to get bored, even if they did they can take a course all the courses are available there. As for women man they don't even have to worry about a wedding or a party everything a woman wants is available there. For example is she has a yellow dress not only that she can find a shoe she can even find the earrings.
Or, or even lets say you can't afford to travel all you got to do is to the shopping mall , trust me I was suppose to go to Beirut BUT THANK GOD I didn't.(everything is there I mean it everything).

I want to live there sooooooo badly. I just want to thank the city of Dubai for a wonderful five day vacation, it not only fixed my mode is also helped me get on track again. I can't wait to go there again.

Let's see what I did and what I didn't do in the year 2005:
• I quit my stupid job and started a new one
• I knew some new information that might damage me for the rest of life
• Went to London and had the best time of my life (the best).
• I have become a lot more confident
• Got a lot more better in what I do
• Started driving
• Gained a lot more weight
• I didn't take any new classes
• Was very careful form the people around me, especially now I think before I talk
• The best accomplishment is my website I am so proud of it.
• I promised my self to loose weight, joined a gym never went!

Monday,December 04, 2005
08:13:12 PM
. . . Cool New 3abayas . . .I just got 3 new 3abayas, i spents like more QR 2000 ONLY ON 3abayas, but i am so happy that i have bought them coz when i shop i usually feel alot better not to forget excited about wearing all of mew stuff.. See sometimes what i do is i buy new stuff and hide so when i am in bad mood i just get them out and imagine that i have just got them, thats incase i couldn't buy anythign that month.

So now i am feeling terrific , HAPPY, and not to forget joyfull...